I got this email from a person at Mu Kappa which is an organization for Missionary Kids, and I was really upset when they took a lot of offense to one of Erin’s diary entires. I realise that we all have foul mouths, but in this case (while looking like a porn link), Erin’s entry was actually commenting on a book that had offended/impacted us all. I felt like I had disappointed the whole Christian cause. But then I went through and looked at my writing, and realized… you know what? I have nothing to be ashamed of. Everything I have written has been me, and I’m proud of. And the people I have choosen as friends, I have choosen because they are good people and they challenge me to be a better writer. Who knows why I feel the need to feel validation… I guess I’m just disappointed because in Dallas M.K. was very much about understanding that Missionary Kids are never going to meld with society in a graceful way,  and I forget that there are people in Wycliff who swing lockstep with the religous right. Ok, that’s too far. I guess it’s just that there’s no outreach to the intellegent people in the religious right. There’s no one saying, “Hey you, thinking person, you have doubts about this party? Perhaps you think there’s a better way? Well there is, and it doesn’t mean you’re a satanist.” I dunno. I just worry that so many people are being lead astray. The one Bible verse that I am completely unable to remove from my mind is Matthew 19:24:

Then Jesus said to his disciples, “I tell you the truth, It is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven” (NIV)

I just think of that again, and again, and again. I can’t help but think that I’m rich. I don’t know exactly what percentage of American’s I’m in, but I do recall from doing taxes that it’s one of the top 3 brackets. And I drive a Golf. And I don’t really worry about money. And there are people starving. Not America starving. Not 89 cents will buy me a McDonads Hamburger starving.  But really starving. Like I don’t have money to buy a pound of rice. Ah well…