Posted on December 14,2006 11:53 PM by
Well, I don't really have much to blog about, but both Tim and Travis have done the meme, so I feel like I can waste 20 minutes listening to music and trying to be clever. Here goes:

Opening Credits: Stan Bowles - The Others. Ah, my movie is going to be fast paced and Anglophilic. Possibly "Velvet Goldmine"-like. Sounds like fun.

Waking up: It's On - The High Strung. Chiming upbeat anthems about infidelity really set the mood for the day.

Falling in love: Sha-la-la-la-lee - The Small Faces. "I held her close and I asked if she was gonna be my baby. It felt so good when she answered me 'Oh yeah! Oh yeah! Oh yeah, Oh yeah, Oh yeah!'" Apparently love makes me act like a child of the 60's. Who knew?

Fight song: Gettin' Hungry - The Beach Boys. So my fights involve "searching for a pretty girl", start and stop organ lines, and three part harmony.

Break up song: What Do You Do When Love Dies - Dusty Springfield. "What do you do when love dies? Somebody help me, I'm losing my mind!" Perfect choice. Passionate, and still somehow upbeat, leading us to...

Making Up: Love Train - Wolfmother. Make-up sex, 70's hard rock style. Oh yeah.

Life's Okay: Teenage Kicks - The Libertines. Apparently things going well still means "I need excitement and I need it bad. Wanna hold you, wanna hold you, wanna hold you tight and get teenage kicks all through the night." Sounds pretty good, actually.

Mental Breakdown: Fumblin' with the Blues - Tom Waits. My breakdown is going to involve heavy drinking, prostitutes and shooting pool. I can see the shots of stumbling through the wet city streets at night, neon blinking, a lone Caddy prowling under the bridge.

Driving: G.T. Road - Clinton. Fast-forward to 3 years later, somewhat cleaned up and cruising through the jungles of Southern Asia as a small time arms dealer (or possibly heroin dealer, what do you think?), Thai whore by my side.

Flashbacks: Shooting Stars - Mosquitos. Ah the idyllic days of my youth romping through sunny English meadows and Mediterranean beaches.

Happy Dance: Imperial Attack - John Williams (Star Wars OST). Happiness is having a battle station that's fully operational.

Regret: Don't Ask Me Why - The Eurythmics. "You spoiled the best years of your life. You took them all in vain. Now you think that you're forgiven, but you can't be born again." Apparently the arms dealing, the whoring, and heavy drinking took their toll. Who would have thought?

Final Battle: I Got You (At the End of the Century) - Wilco. Alright, apparently I'm only going to make it through 2000, cause I keep talking about how the 70's were great. But I'm getting my girl back, cause I can't think of anything but her.

Death Scene: Roadrunner - The Modern Lovers. So this is how I'm going to go... radio on, cranked up, driving down a windy New England highway in the middle of the night, off into the ditch, smashed into a tree at 75, smile on my face, I'm in love with rock and roll! All of this is kind of making me feel like some sort of more Eurocentric Hunter S. Thompson kind of character.

Final Credits: I'm On Standby - Grandaddy. In which the end of life is kind of like being a computer down for maintenance. Once the work order is completed, we can go back online. It's jut the turn of the century version of reincarnation.

Posted on January 29,2006 01:40 AM by
APPEARANCE
I am shorter than 5'4.
I am taller than 5'11".
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I don't shave my legs.(regularly)
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have a tattoo, or more.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/had braces.
I wear glasses just to read.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have/had more than 2 piercings.
I have/had piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.
 

FAMILY/HOME LIFE
I've sworn at my parents.
I've run away from home.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I've lost a child.
 

SCHOOL/WORK
I'm in school.
I have a job.
I've fallen asleep at work/school.
I almost always do my homework.
I've missed a week or more of school.
I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years (of school)
I failed more than 1 class last year.
I've stolen something from my job.
I've been fired.
I've skipped school.
 

EMBARRASSMENT
I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've peed from laughing.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public.
 

HEALTH
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've gotten stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.
My vision is better than 20/20.
 

TRAVELING
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Mexico.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan
I've been down under.
I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
I've been to Hell.
 

EXPERIENCES
I've gotten lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the internet.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played chicken.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten Sushi.
I've been snowboarding.
 

SEXUALITY
I've had a crush on more than one person.
I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
I've kissed someone of the same sex.
I've had a crush on a teacher.
I am a cuddler.
I love to flirt.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've hugged a stranger.
I've kissed a stranger.
 

HONESTY/CRIME
I am a terrible liar.
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I've snuck out of my house.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've been in a fist fight
I've witnessed a crime
I've been arrested
I've shoplifted
 

DEATH & DYING
I'm afraid of dying.
I've fantasized about my own death.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has commited suicide.
I've planned my own suicide.--In the past--Don't worry, I'm not suicidal now.
I've written a eulogy for myself.
 

MATERIALISM
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an iPod or MP3 player.
I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
I own something from Hot Topic.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I collect comic books.
I own something from The Gap.
I own something I got on e-bay.
I own something from Abercrombie.
 

POLITICAL/SOCIAL ATTITUDES
In general, I don't like people. - not completely true, but I figured someone has to bold this one eventually, so why not me?
I'm a feminist.
I'm very outgoing.
I listen to political music
I'm Democratic
I'm Republican.
I'm liberal.
I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
I am for Bush.
I'm religious.
I dress fairly modestly. (but I wouldn't if I had a better body image)
My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."
 

RANDOM
I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news.
I don't kill bugs.
I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
I curse regularly.
I sing in the shower.
I am a morning person.
I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar.- only a little bit.
I am a sports fanatic.
I twirl my hair.
I have "x"s in my screen name.
I love being neat.
I've had Spam.
I've copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
I bake well.
My favorite color is blue.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart.
I know how to shoot a gun.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I play video games.
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
My answers are totally honest.

Posted on September 14,2004 04:09 AM by
So, I was trying to update information on this website just now, and for some reason it didn't work. I'm going to blame Tim. The site looks great now, though. So I guess I can't blame him too much. Tim makes things happen. In fact, I wish I could just be incredibly proficient with computer stuff and make things work like he does. But I can't.

Posted on May 9,2004 11:54 PM by
Ok, so since I'm totally incapable of just sticking with one thing, my rambling mind has come up with a new project... I'm going to interview people and find out all about them, just like on reality TV! So here's a request: Imagine you are a celebrity and are being interviewed by a major magazine. What would you want to be asked? How would the setup be? Who would you want to be the interviewer?

Posted on April 25,2004 08:00 PM by

 In the summer of 1977 the boy first found the book.  It was a very distinct looking text.  The cover was plain and unadorned, worn by many hands.  Inside, the pages had originally been stitched in, but the stitches had disintegrated with time, and many of the pages were practically falling out or only held in by staples and yellowing cellophane tape.  It was a most unusual book.

 It had been a beautiful day that July 17th, mild and sunny with a light breeze.  The boy was staying at his grandparents home in suburban Connecticut for two weeks while his parents were in California for their work.  They were in planning and real estate development and the boy was pretty sure they were thinking of moving their business to the West Coast, probably so they could make more money.  George and Margaret had been married young and the boy came along soon after.  He quite often felt that perhaps his parents regretted having a kid, as if the responsibility of caring for him was an unwelcome burden, a cramp in their style. 
 The boy didn't mind staying with his grandparents, though.  His grandmother, Edith spoiled him just enough, while Frank, his grandfather, was always working on his different machines in the garage and loved to take time to explain them all to the boy.  Frank had been a mechanical engineer starting during the world war at the then very new Sikorsky plant near their home in Bridgeport, CT.  He had helped design the helicopters that the men of the boy's father's generation had known well in Korea and Vietnam.  Frank had retired about five years ago but never got used to not having somewhere to go everyday.  Now he spent most of his days in that poorly lit garage.  Tools, boxes of spare parts, and disassembled clocks and gears had long crowded out the possibility of having an actual automobile in there.
 

That day Frank was of course working on something.  A lawnmower, the boy thought.  Edith had gone to the hairdresser's that morning to have her perm reset and had been by the IGA grocery on the way home.  She was now in the kitchen preparing a meatloaf for their dinner.

 The garage sale was actually being held down the street at St. Stephen's Episcopal Church.  Frank and Edith's neighbor, Mrs. Parkwood, was organizing it.  The Ladies Auxiliary was raising funds for an orphanage in Ethiopia, "because the poof African children have so little."  Mrs. Parkwood and the other ladies had collected donations from everyone's attics and garages in the neighborhood and put prices on them and arrayed them on folding tables in the grange hall and outside on the lawn.  Edith had donated some of her old knitting supplies she wasn't using anymore and had convinced Frank to part with a couple of radios he'd repaired but they didn't need littering up the house.  Mrs. Parkwood herself was the cashier and after selecting your purchases you would bring them to her and she would make change.  The Ladies Auxiliary had a sale like this every year, though always for a different cause, and Mrs. Parkwood always took charge of the cash box. 
 

The boy went down to the sale alone that afternoon.  Edith had already been by that morning before her hair appointment, and Frank never went to these sales.  "Why would I want somebody else's old junk anyways?" he always said.  The boy suspected that Frank just didn't like Mrs. Parkwood and was rather cheap to boot.  Frank and the boy had been on many expeditions to the town dump where Frank would uncover wonderful finds to bring back to the garage.  Lamps with a broken switch, or chairs with legs missing, he would bring them back and repair them all.
 

The book caught the boy's eye at first because it was out of place.  It didn't belong where it was.  The ladies had a special table for all the books, separated into different sections:  paperback, mystery, romance, non-fiction, etc.  But this book wasn't on the book table.  It was in amongst a table mostly filled with old tools and kitchen utensils and dishes.  The boy saw it lying there underneath a potato masher that had seen better days and a couple of green glass salt and pepper shakers.  The boy picked it up out of curiosity.  There was no title on the cover or on the spine, and when the boy opened to the first page expecting a title page and the author's name there were none.  Whether the book originally had a title page that fell out or if there never was one the boy didn't know.  Either way the text started immediately.  It was printed in this old-fashioned type face, as if the book was like a hundred years old or something, and rather than filling all the pages it seemed to only go halfway through and then stop, to be taken over by various handwritten passages and type or mimeographed sections pasted in. 
 

The boy wasn't much of a reader, but flipping through the pages he started to become fascinated.  He wasn't even really reading the text, but more so looking at all the different handwritings, the sections added on, the notes in the margins.  The book had seen lots of different hands before.  Without quite knowing why, the boy decided he wanted the book.  There was no price tag on it, and looking down the row of tables at Mrs. Parkwood perched on her folding chair, the boy knew what he needed to do.  Holding the book nonchalantly at his side he started walking down the row of tables.  He glanced back over his shoulder and saw that Mrs. Parkwood was making change for a middle-aged woman buying a slightly used set of juice glasses.  The boy took the book in his left hand, and raising up the hem of his orange T-shirt with his right, he slid the book down the front of his jeans, leaving it pressed in between the waist and his stomach.  It was the first act of theft the boy had ever committed.